Sunday, October 17, 2010
Faith, trust and love...
Strength does not come from winning. Your struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength...
"Hey sweetie I am a little worried about you and I will share some of the verses that I read today, and something that I wrote yesterday. I miss you tons and it sucks knowing at you are home without me.
Matthew 14:28 "And Peter answered him and said, Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water. 29 And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind boisterous, he was afaid; and begining to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me. 31 And immediately Jesus streched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt?
Wow I love this and I hope it helps. Even men that walked beside the Lord in flesh couldn't even trust Him the way He wants us to. He knows that we try but we can't and He is aways there to pick us up and say "Keep going son or dauther I am here, walk with me on the water, trust me."
I hope this helps because I feel the waves trying to drown us and He is reaching out and all we need to do is grab hold. HeeHee again I love you and I can never say it enough!"
(E-mail from Ben 8/27/2007 while deployed!)
The above e-mail says it all! My man is a very wise man! I am seeing Ben live this out every single day even if he doesn't want to! Ben is trusting our Jesus to get him through this and to help him everyday. It gives me strength at teh same time...builds my trust too!
I just need to trust the Lord more and more each day! As I trust Him He will fill me with more faith, hope and the strength to move forward! I don't want to be the man on the boat that cannot have faith that he will be protected...even when Jesus was right next to him in the flesh! Yes, it is always easier trust in something that is right in front of you but when I can say, "I trust you Lord" and it be when He is not pysically beside me I know takes great faith! You and I will be honored for that!
Be the person in the boat that trusts Jesus with your whole heart even when you cannot see Him with your eyes!
I was gently reminded by a lovely lady this last week of something that hit me hard in a good way. She wrote, "I know it has to be hard for you to see those happily married people - and worse - those who have the marriage, kids, etc and are throwing it all away - but you ARE happily married despite an unhappy situation and that is something to be proud of." I also read a quote this week about a marriage and she said, "I am so bored with my marriage!" Despite the journey of recovery we are on I can proudly and happily say that Ben and I are blessed and have a happy, strong marriage! It is easy to get down in the dumps about things and how life is right now and it is ok for me to do that. It is how I choose to deal with those feelings and how long I allow them to stick around that is the issue. I can also so that I have never been "bored" in my relationship with my man. Yes, we may still be considered newly weds but that is not the reason we are still toghere...it is the love the Lord has given to both of us for each other! This journey is also not boring...so fully of new things each and every day, both hard and enjoyable! I am greatful to the Lord, that He has given me a man that loves me, cherishes me, and tells me verbally multiple times a day I LOVE YOU!
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