Tuesday, October 28, 2014

our little miracle family...


...more to come...

Friday, October 17, 2014

last few weeks...

just wanted to share with you some photos of our lil family over the past few weeks! 
we are blessed and in love with this little boy! he is a pretty easy baby and has been quite content!
more to come and a g rated version of his birth! 
heres your photo overload...





















Monday, October 6, 2014

new baby...


:: every new child brought into the world is a new thought of God, an ever fresh radiant possibility ::

Cruz Benjamin 
October 2, 2014 @ 635 pm
8 pounds 4 ounces
21.5 inches

First family pic just hours old...excuse my appearance! :)


Last few days...



Sunday, September 14, 2014

therapy video...



we wanted to share with you a video that ben and i were apart of recently. this video they started putting together in may/june and did some follow up along the way. this is the place where ben currently does therapy, two times a week, and they do a fundraiser every year. we were unable to go to the fundraiser due to the timing but they shared the video with us...

it was filmed in another home and then at the therapy facility ben goes to. it was fun to be apart of and ben did really well along the way...even when he doesn't love being photographed and videod.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQc0hfqpouE&feature=share

ps...no baby, 4 days until due date so we still have some time...

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

fifth year...



five years. wow. some days i feel like it all just started yesterday and other days it feels forever.

as i type this (wednesday evening) ben looked over at me and said, "im so sorry. i hate this and that you have had to live like this and walk through this with me." my reply, "i hate this for both of us but i am happy to walk with you through this. you amaze me and you are doing such an awesome job and working hard." ben, "i still hate this and am sad about the whole thing."

hard for a wife to hear from the man she loves with her whole heart but at the same time his brain still thinks about me and still cares for how i feel. ben has not stopping moving forward, he is still determined, motivated and strong as all get out. (insert ben just leaned over and said i was his angel)
life has thrown hardships at him and he says it is the hardest thing he has ever done in his life. coming from a man who served 13 years in the military, deployed 6 times, climbed mt rainier 3, passed many selective schools and has put up with me...and this is his hardest task at hand. his physical and mental abilities were stripped from him and he has had to work for every piece that he has back. yes, hardest thing for sure...strongest man ever! 

this past year has been full of fun and hardships at the same time. we have had ups and downs. blessings and hardships. sorrows and joys. answers and no answers. lots has happened. 

one of the hardest things we have been dealing with is on the mental side is bens anger and frustration about where he is in life. if he wasn't able to remember who he was, what he has accomplished, what he is capable of and all that he could do physically it wouldn't be an issue but he does. he knows, he gets it, he remembers. so to him it makes it ever harder! he gets super frustrated at sport events, hanging out with family, any sport or experience he gets to do...because either he cannot do it or he cannot do it in the way he knows he used to. he's tired of it, he's angry about it and sometimes shows it. he just gets mad. its ok. he needs to. its the way he gets it out. please pray for this frustration. pray for his heart. pray for his healing. this is a journey he is on. we have and are learning to cope with it and how to handle it in the different situations. i am learning patience and how to let him have his space but also how to re-route things and walk him through it. bens learning to work it out, how to communicate how he's feeling and not so much act what he's feeling. its a journey that im sure we will be walking through for a long time...

the biggest blessing and miracle that has happened in this year is a lil baby on his way. we didn't know if this would happen but God has definitely blessed us with this miracle! ben is super excited. he has been mentioning the last few days at least every day that he cannot wait for him to get here. he has his recliner set up and said his job will be to hold him and sleep! ha, he's in for a surprise when i hand him this baby with a dirty diaper, when its screaming his head off or needs a bottle. i am sure he will be happy to do it! this baby will not take away the brain injury or what we still need to walk through but i believe this lil baby will give us both a new sense of hope, something to take our eyes off of whats been the focus for the past five years. it will be hard. there will be ups and downs. im sure there will be tears...but God will equip us and keep us strong in our weakest points! 



i came across this quote awhile ago and it hits my heart in a very real way. it doesn't end. it finds new ways of coping, new ways of living. new ways of dreaming. grief can bring a lot of new but it still brings the heartache. ben and i don't feel weak or faithless when we grieve what happened, what is not going to be, or that what has happened to us just is not fair. it is still grief. there are many things along the way that we will have to grieve through, it doesn't end, we have to continually walk through  it with every situation life brings. i wish we and others didn't have to grieve but its life. God doesn't want us to grieve but he created us, emotions and all. i believe its what we do with our grief. sit and around and think on it always, do nothing, get mad, bitter...so many of these (and more) that ben and i have walked through and experienced. we have to still walk through them, process as well. but we don't stay there. ok some things longer then others but we eventually work through it together and with the Lord. we grieve and we love. i love ben more then ever and him the same. slightly different kind of love being the situation were in but its an amazing love...

i know we haven't been the best at updating this past year (ok or two-ish) but we know that y'all still pray for us and are supporting us along the way. thank you for that. it is a blessing. we truly do appreciate it. we are anxious to share this next exciting journey with you in bringing this miracle baby into the world! around 3 weeks left and our lives again will change forever! we will definitely let you know when the big day comes! 

we contine to hope on. we continue to believe. we continue to trust that God is still healing...

"truly He is my rock and salvation; he is my fortress, i will not be shaken!" Psalm 62:6







Monday, July 14, 2014

water skiing and boating...

A few weeks ago we hit the road to Cali for a quick 3 day trip for Ben to participate in a new adventure...sit water skiing! 

Being a past avid wakeboarder he was definitely excited to go and try! 

The first day was just trying to get used to the board and process but the next day he said he felt much more comfortable! 










It's been super hot here and in a long spurt which is unusual for us so of course we've been floating and boating! Ben even decided he'd just drive his boat...




 
 

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

randoms...


still busy around these parts! i don't think that will ever change! horse therapy on mondays, therapy of some type for ben on tuesdays, thursdays and sometimes fridays, and then appointments in and out on other days! 
this doesn't factor in my stuff to do, appointments, keeping up with the house inside and out! whoosh! always on the go with some down time but we like it that way! keeps us from sitting around and getting cranky! :)

just a few random pics of what's going on...

ben got to ski in tahoe for four days...







working hard in therapy...




and im still getting my workouts in (this was like at 20 weeks...we're almost at 26!)...


ben broke his toe...no idea how...


second session of horse therapy complete and he's going on to his third next week...



the boat came out for some fun and we've been enjoying some sunsets...





and got a kayak ride in...



we vacuumed the car today. ben was sitting and when i looked up from the side i was vacuuming i saw this...




bens latest was getting his braces off...




more adventures (new ones too) to come in the weeks to come!! as i get the pics i will post!! 

thank you for continually supporting and praying for us! this is a long lasting journey but with jesus and prayers were walking forward! 

**people have asked if they can send baby stuff and where to! if you would like to please contact me for our address! benandkatierye@hotmail.com