Tuesday, January 11, 2011
life will go on...
I have come to the conclusion that life for us will never be the same! I think that is how I should have been thinking pre-accident but I wasn't because life to me was peachy! How can any of us think that life will be the same or how we want it to be? We plan a day and at the end of the day something in it changed or didn't go the way we wanted. We plan a move, a marriage, a baby, a year, a life...nothing goes usually as we plan. We have been told by the Lord that we are not promised our tomorrows.
This bothered me for a long time! I wanted life to go just as I planned and I wanted it to look my way with my plans and for us to look a certain way! The Lord has taught me a great lesson in this. He does not say in Jeremiah 29:11, for your know the plans that are for you...He says, "for I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future!" He doesn't say there will never be heartache, changes to our plans, shattered dreams...He just says He knows that plans He has for us! I don't think the Lord had this happen to us but He allowed it. I still question at times why and now the big question is when is it going to be over. When I look at the last part of this verse though it gives me much strength and hope! Plans to PROSPER, plans of HOPE, and plans of a FUTURE!!
Ben may never look exactly like this...
I may never look like this...
but we will always have this...
God has promised a future and a hope and in that Ben and I have each other love and we have each other! In having that it makes this journey a bit easier! We are committed to each other and in that I know that we will be blessed and taken care of!
This past weekend was a really good one. Not that anything exquisit happened or did we go on some grand adventure but it was just a good weekend for Ben and I!
Saturday Ben had therapy mid morning and not only did he work on his walking but they also tried him out on his bowling skills! He did great with his arms until they got tired and then it became a foot game! If his doc approves (which he should) Ben will get to take a bowling alley trip with Rec Therapy this coming Thursday!! The rest of the day we just chilled, played some games and then our buddies from the fire department stopped by to visit! Ben always enjoys those visits because he gets some man time!
Sunday I got to Ben around 1030 and went to find him and was told he was in church! They asked him before I got there if he wanted to go and he said yes! I found him listening to the sermon with much intensity! I snuck in behind him and listened as well! The sermon ended and they started singing Oh How I Love Jesus! Ben started singing and it was not a quite lil voice but a strong one! He never was one to sing loud in church but in his own quite kind of way. It was soooo good to hear him singing praises to Jesus! I asked him when we got back to his room if he liked church today he said yes. When I asked him why he liked it these were his answers:
~Not alot of people
~I can worship the Lord
~I am not the only one praising the Lord.
After church we hung out until lunch. We ate lunch here and then took off to my hotel room. Ben loves going to my room because not only does it get him out of the hospital but he gets to take a nice long nap in my comfy bed! Ben took a nap and I watched our church service back in WA online.
Ben was laying on the bed and he said out of no where, "the guy who hit us should be here (hospital!)" I told you that I would love to switch but would never wish this on anyone! I told Ben that we can no longer look back at the accident but we must move and look forward! I shared a few things with him and told him who he was to me. When I was done I asked Ben who he was and this is what he said...
-I am a man
-I am a man of God
-I'm a faithful man
-I am a good husband
-I am a faithful Ranger
-I'm a man full of integrity!
What an amazing husband I have...I know I have said it over and over but it is true!
We snuggled a bit longer and then headed back to Kessler for his dinner and more hang time! Ahhhh, I love being with my man! Thank you Jesus for giving me more time with him!
I told Ben I was going to throw a fit about something and he said, "no, I will not allow that!" Me-"why?" Ben-"Because I wear the pants of this family!"
I told Ben that Verizon gets the iPhone next month and Ben said, "that's bad!" When I asked him why he said, "your going to want it!" Oh he knows me to well! I will have to wait until I get an upgrade...too many dollars!
at 6:12 PM