Saturday, August 27, 2016

seven.



7 years. 7 years of our almost 9 years of marriage have been lived in the crazy world of a brain injury. ben and i shouldn't be here with the injuries we both suffered but by the grace of God we are. i never liked the reminders of this day and it's emotions, the emotions are not as fresh but they're still there. ive been asked if it would have been easier if ben just died...and ill admit that there are times we've both wanted to walk out the door but id never wish my husband were dead...love keeps us together. i still feel robbed of the life i thought we'd have but at the same time look at all the blessings and healing God has done and given. God blessed me with a man who refuses to give up and given me the stubbornness (sometimes a downside) to fight on. we're grateful for my family and the friends whom have stuck with us and the new friends God has blessed us with who accept us for who we are. we still hope and pray for more healing in bens body but also accept that this is life and despite it all He is good even when we don't see it all the time or think it's the good we want...
 play this song on repeat at times because its soooo good...

5 comments:

Sherrie Nackel said...

I'm so glad you posted. I thought of your family this summer and wondered how you are all doing. Your baby boy is getting so big. Prayers for continued healing for Ben.

Jen said...

Raw, real, and beautiful. Just as you are. Love to you today especially, but always.

Anonymous said...

Blessings to you, my Friend. Seven years is a long time here. It's hard to remember this is only for a little while and when we get Home it will be....well past and hardly remembered. You have honored Father through it all and He is proud of you, of you both.

Hugs and prayers,
Marion

Becky L. said...

It's good to read you words again. Thankful you're still together and living life one step at time and God with you all. What would our lives be without Him? He's our rock. A fortress. Our redeemer. May you find blessings among the hard moments. Hugs and prayers, Becky

Laurel said...

7 years ago, my world was rocked, too. Life has never been the same. Dreams were shattered. Life has been one crisis after another. I, too, have often wanted to just "walk out the door" or "drive off into the sunset". But, the Lord has kept my feet on the ground, holding my hand as I take one step after another.

I wasn't in a car accident. My husband doesn't have a brain injury. Our injuries are hidden . . . internal . . . heart injuries. But, injuries none-the-less. I continue to pray for healing, though it is often difficult to hold onto hope.

You are an inspiration to many. Thanks for sharing your life so openly.

I LOVE the picture of your precious family!!!

Laurel